Recently a simple lyric to a song has really stuck in my head – ‘Growing pains hurt’. It sucks, but it’s true! I suppose the question becomes: Is growth worth it?
I think my growth has in the main been slow and steady; but since becoming a mum, my growth has rapidly increased. It takes work, it takes vulnerability. For me, it has meant stepping out from the black and white, embracing the reality that if you only see the world in black and white you miss so much beauty!
It has meant questioning; it has meant leaning into my doubts.
I have expanded my vision of the world and of God. My son has been the catalyst to make me want to grow: I want to show him that although it might be painful, it’s worth it, it’s worth the fight.
I’ve found it to be messy, twisted and tangled but there IS growth; there is life in the branches and little white flowers will bloom. That is the beautiful picture God gave me: twisted and entangled branches blooming with small white flowers.
I wanted to encourage you to question, to lean into your doubts, and to grow. The branches might entwine, but growth and beauty will come!
Growing pains
……..hurt
ache, stretch, pull
Invisible but no less real
Why grow?
Can’t I just stay the same?
Black and white
Is clear, distinct
A world without this
Binary boundary
Is so unsettling
All its different shades
Tangled
Twisted
Do I have to grow straight?
Is beauty found in the bends?
These branches aren’t dead
Although messy and entwined
Delicate flowers will bloom